I ‘got my frump on’ real good last night, had a good cry and woke up feeling much better this morning. Nancy, I saw your comment this morning, and you are so right – the one thing we can count on in this life is change – and that’s about the only constant we’ve got! And Maggie, thanks for your comment, too. I know that I am making a difference, it just doesn’t feel like it, sometimes.
But that’s the reality of it, you know? When you look at any one particular event or situation in your life, you open yourself up to self-recrimination, feelings of ineffectiveness and frustration that when viewed from the big picture, aren’t really warranted. So, when life kicks you in the ass, you have to remember to get up, climb up to that big picture view and take a look around. You’re never going to see a perfect picture, but you’ll almost certainly see a better picture.
I don’t want to run away from home anymore. Life would just follow me, anyway, and there’s nowhere that I’m safe from a swift kick in the ass every now and then. That’s life. That’s reality.
Hey girlfriend… Anytime you start to feeling like you have made no difference in someone’s life, just please take a look at mine. I don’t know how I would’ve made it without you this past six months.
If you need to talk, you always know how to get in touch with me.
**hugs**
And best of all, and I think you will get this in ways I wouldn’t say to most people, you are experiencing life to the fullest – good, bad, in between, getting the whole spectrum of experience. It’s not always pretty, easy or fun, but someone like you knows how to stand up and become stronger for it. I admire that.
Suzanne, here is your great big fat gold medal Iif I knew how to draw or add images to a blog post I would put it here — so it’s an “invisible” one, but nonetheless real. . . ) for doing what many people on this planet are not yet willing to do: look themselves in the mirror and stand up with dignity and say “I may not always like how things are going, but I will be present to what is true for me whether I like it or not.”
I think we’re all learning how to do that. It sure as hell ain’t easy either!!
Keep that medal pinned firmly wherever you need it — and wear it proudly — because you are showing us all how it’s done.
Way to go!!!
(P.S. I’ve earned the right to award medals because I’ve been there/done that/got the scars to prove it .)
Hugs,
Nancy